Now that I'm back home in King Williams Town my mind
has been actively spinning with thoughts of the life I lived under the
influence of so many mood and mind altering substances. It’s hard having to be
back to the very place that nearly killed me, literally. Facing your “demons”
is something we all have to do at some point. We must confront the things that
plague us– our insecurities, shortcomings, and the sneaking suspicion that
maybe we are not as good of people as we play ourselves to be. I just knew it
would be best for me to leave Johannesburg for some time to rather be back home
to face all my demons - head on, with the help of the people who love me the
most. I remember waking up each and every day wanting to spark a litany of
impassioned hope for a better life for myself. And If I were to somehow measure
my well-being and the general state in which my life was in at the time, it
would've been without a doubt been equivalent to zero or even close to
absolutely nothing. I know for a fact I can't go back to doing the same things
I did in the past. So I've put together a relapse prevention to help me stay fully
focused on pursuing a much more meaningful existence. This is a list of things
that will possibly help me along my path.
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Use positive affirmations
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Staying active and focused
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Not go into tough situations by myself
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Start each day and end each day with a session at the
gym OR any other recovery orientated activity I might have I mind
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Talk to others about my recovery as much as I can
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Prepare for the most challenging situations if I can’t
avoid it
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| A drug test I recently passed |
